An Open Letter

I'm here for you...

I just don't want you to feel alone. You know, you hear so many people in the world say to trust them, that you're not alone, they're "here for you". But it's all a lie and you know it. They don't care about you, then they'll make it, somehow, they'll manage to make it your fault. Then when they've ruined, and made a mess of everything, they'll just leave. It's the way it goes, but we become people that have real life experience because of those odious relationships. We become people who are filled with knowledge, to pass down. I know I'm just a lousy teenager who doesn't have the strength or the confidence to do half of the things I want to do. But I am here for you. I am! Even if I'm your only friend, I'm here. Don't lose that. Don't take it for granted. Don't turn a blind eye. Don't be a fool. Just don't. Because a person is lucky if they get 3 to 4 good friends in this life and here I am saying I'll be yours. Why won't you let me in? I just want to see the way your brain works. I want to know your dreams. I want to know your aspirations. I want to know your fears. I want to see the way your mind processes different experiences. I want to hear you describe a sunset or the rain. I want to know the things you believe in, even if they make absolutely no sense. I want to be the person that no matter what, is still there. Because that's the person, or the type of person, I'd like to believe I am. But I'm done playing surface level. That only ever lasts for so long. And I know, I know I can be overwhelming and smothering at times, I'm just this huge giant who always seems to be butting in. But it's only because I truly care. And it's only because if I don't push people out of their comfort zone's, they'll never open up. Look! I'm willing to invest my heart and soul into you. How are you going to reject that? Deep down we all want to be loved. Deep down we all want to be accepted and appreciated. And whether you'll admit to it or not is your decision, but I'm a little less naïve, and I know that I am right. And if you think for one second that I'm some fool for pouring out my heart and sharing it... I've got news for you. Being vulnerable isn't something to be ashamed of. And I play it as a strength. I'm open, so ask me anything, go ahead and in return I get to ask you things. Personal things. Because that's what you are. An individual. A person! Who lives and breathes and has passions and is creative and is beautiful and has so much potential. You are so young! YOU ARE SO YOUNG!! So stop hating the world and start enjoying it. If I had someone like me when I was your age, I wouldn't have hurt so badly when life happened. Because life happens, and it sucks. You feel lonely. You'll feel forgotten. You'll think that you have to be fake and that you can never show your true colors because you'll only be rejected. But that's exactly what I'm trying to say. You're not alone! You won't be forgotten. I'm right here. I will accept you. You don't have to be afraid with me, cuz I know what it's like to be all alone and I know what it's like to fear rejection.

....I'm here